Trying out a new series – where I will be writing in a more personal tone, giving updates on the dramas I’m watching and just generally, rambling about what’s up with my life.

[SF9 – Fall In Love| Narcissus album] 

Both my brain and heart feel rather cluttered recently so I wanted to turn to writing. Recapping/reviewing does take up too much brain-juice though, so while I’m definitely going to keep doing that, I thought it would be nice if I could just create a space for myself to ramble. Think midnight heart to heart talks, think winding down after the end of a long day. That’s the kind of vibe I’m going for for this post, hopefully many more to come, and I hope you will like it too. (While I’m at it, do me a favour will you and press play on that song – I really like it!)

I’ve been getting really into SF9 recently, which is rather surprising given that I’ve never liked a single kpop group despite watching more than a decade of k-dramas. I stumbled upon them quite accidentally – after trailing Chani from Sky Castle and realising that he can actually dance/rap. This is incredibly reminiscent of how I started being an Aaron Yan fangirl too (went from Love Buffet to Love Buffet behind the scenes to Fahrenheit videos). As a whole, SF9’s videos have been giving me much laughter and there’s something intriguingly attractive about the idea of videos always being a source of happy entertainment. When I’m feeling stressed or just sad, my go-to nowadays is to click through their videos on Youtube and Twitter. I also THRIVE on music (I can’t survive a workday without being plugged in at least for a few hours) so that’s how I got hooked in too, because I genuinely like their songs.

I think this is partly the reason why I’ve not been able to get into many dramas recently, because dramas can be good AND depressing or just okay-ish in terms of entertainment value, both of which wouldn’t quite help me feel better. I couldn’t finish The Light in Your Eyes at the moment because I read sorts of comments about the finale, including how people cried a flood for it. Touch Your Heart has been good, but I personally don’t think it was spectacular…? It is however, nice to see Lee Dong Wook and Yoo In Na reunite again so I’m definitely not complaining in any way. I also thought this is a good change of role for Lee Dong Wook, who has been in the recent dramas a brooding/depressed type. I’m hoping He is Psychometric will save me from this ‘drought’-ish and I’m also keeping my eye on Doctor Prisoner and Kill It (which in any case, would still fall under the category of good but depressing). Thinking of checking out Confession and Her Private Life when that’s out.

But strangely, this is one of the rare times I’m feeling such a disconnect with dramas. Let me know if you feel the same way? That this is because of the current batch of dramas and not because I’ve started liking a kpop group? Haha! In any case, don’t worry for all you drama people out there (and sorry to the kpop-fans), I’m only going to keep to one group for the moment. That’s just how my fangirling journey has been for the past decade (Vic Zhou, Yamapi, Aaron Yan) – I have no mental capacity for more than one target at one timeXD.

Ironically, the song I chose for this post is so sad (google the lyrics!) but somehow the melody really hits home. I will share a happier song next time! Not sure if this post will be read by anyone but I guess it’s okay because I just kinda miss the private space I had back in the Livejournal days when I would literally write a post with the title “I AM ALIVE” and sign off after a two-line post. Hahaha.

Anyway, signing off now. Hope you guys have a great week ahead!<3

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